Letting go sucks, but with every thing I let go of, I feel a little lighter. I was forced to let go of my fitness regimen, of my perfectionism, of my idea of a good summer vacation, of my pride, of my career expectations. I fought as hard as I could, but I have to admit that once the wave of disappointment and anxiety passes, I feel gratitude. This freedom is hard-won and I wouldn’t return to being an eternally unsatisfied overachiever.